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I'll be leaving for Mumbai tonight at 2000hrs.


Truth be told - I'm neither terribly excited nor emotional now. Perhaps it's because the day has been very mundane so far - I had a run at the reservoir with Flo in the morning; I took a nap; I'm making plans to run some errands; I'm using my computer now until I have to pack it in my luggage. Yet, everything will be different moving forward. I may no longer have the chance to run with Flo at the reservoir anymore if she's not in SG by the time we return from Mumbai; I may no longer return to my mum's place for a nap in the middle of the morning; I can't just "run to the mall" to run some errands in the next 1 year plus (going to the mall will be a big thing and a long car ride away in Mumbai); and my computer may just decide to die on me in transit in my pink luggage. :|


I told Flo this morning that this feels like "Part II" of growing up, where we are heading towards different directions (literally) in life and we don't know what the future holds for us. We don't want the change, yet change is coming for each and every one of us, whether we want or like it or not.


But change can be good, no? Like how I see this change will help me to fulfill some of the things I had once said I wish to accomplish before I turn 30 (sidetrack: turning 30 had seemed SO FAR AWAY when I wrote that list in 2009) such as quit my job (not really, but kinda true) and commit myself to community service. Most importantly, I think the time in Mumbai with PJ will be good for us and help shape our identity as a couple. It's a great unknown out there, but I'll definitely try my best to embrace this change.